sophie and sophia

one takes the city and one takes the bay
and I'm just between them, exactly midway
from Sophie and Sophia
and what I'd do, I don't wanna know
if I'd never met either one of them, I would go
I'd search the valleys, hills and sea

for Sophie and Sophia
never had a day that didn't agree
with Sophie and Sophia
Sophie and Sophia
similar yet different, perfectly
just Sophie, Sophia and me

you schedule meals with me once every week
and I know you really hear me when I start to speak
I'll stop and smell the roses with you, Sophia
I'll paint my toes a sparkly gold
and you paint yours blue like that Taylor Swift video
Sophie, I'm never lonely when I see ya

Sophie and Sophia

always an adventure eventually
with Sophie and Sophia
Sophie and Sophia
where this road is goin', we're gonna see
just Sophie, Sophia and me

and every now and then we reunite again
we drive along the sea
we sing of brown eyes, blue skies, piña coladas and being free
and I think, looking back, my favorite memories will be

with Sophie and Sophia
we could sail the world or watch TV
me, Sophie and Sophia
Sophie and Sophia
what would the world be without us three?

me, Sophie and Sophia
never a regret, I guarantee
with Sophie and Sophia
Sophie and Sophia
what would the world be without us three?
Sophie, Sophia and me
Sophie, Sophia and me
Sophie, Sophia and me

only the start

never seen anything like this before
didn't need anything till you walked through that door
you were a golden arrow
you were a helpless beau
I had the golden hair, oh, how was I supposed to know?

thought I was wise until I saw your face
thought I knew eyes until yours put me in my place
you were a simple question
you were a basket case
I was a soft suggestion till I found your safe embrace

maybe we met before
maybe I know you in my heart
but whatever it is
this is only the start

gotta hold on because this might not last
gotta stay strong cause soon this moment will be in the past
you aren't afraid to trust me
you are a dream complete
I am not vain, it's just we only get one chance to meet

maybe we met before
maybe I know you in my heart
but whatever it is
this is only the start

keep holding tight until the sun arrives
you can stay right beside me as my breath revives
you will be all my troubles
and you'll be the only key
I'll be safe from the rubble as long as you are here with me

maybe we met before
maybe I know you in my heart
but whatever it is
this is only the start
this is only the start
this is only the start

can't listen to that song anymore

I can't listen to that song anymore
so I listen to this one instead
it's got the rhythm and rhymes, with none of the bad times

from the song I liked before
but the old one still gets in my head

so I sing la de da de da
da da da da ha
can't remember a single word no matter how many times I've heard
but I know la de da de da da
da da da
and I think if I sing it enough
I'll forget about falling in love

I can't listen to that song anymore
it haunts me whenever I go
and I'm frozen with fear, just as soon as I hear
that old melody knock on my door
but it keeps showing up even so

so I go la de da de da
da da da da ha
kinda catchy I can't deny
kinda catch me with a tear in my eye
and I know la de da de da da
da da da
and I think if I sing it enough
I'll forget about falling in love

and I resent you for the day
you took my favorite song away
I introduced it to my friends and now I pay
they all play it on trips in the car
and I think how we were how we are

I can't listen to that song anymore
so this one will just have to do
it's not quite as sweet, got less of a beat
you might even say it's a bore
but it doesn't remind me of you

it just goes la de da de da
da da da da ha
never remember a single word no matter how many times I've heard
but I know la de da de da da
da da da
and I think if I sing it enough
I'll forget about falling in love

I can't listen to that song anymore
so I listen to this one instead
it's go the rhythm and rhymes, with none of the bad times
from the song I liked before
but the old one still gets in my head

spider on the ceiling (interlude)

well, I thought I was brave

I thought I could be

living like a grown-up independently

I made it countless nights

turning out the lights

taking out the trash and moving on to greater heights

and it all changed

one April eve

I thought I was so safe but I no longer believe

it's such an unsettling feeling

to find a giant spider on the ceiling

sunburn

I won't complain
after all, I asked for this mistake
it's all in vain
until my skin begins to flake

I am a red and peeling monster, lobster
you touch me and I cringe
did anybody see this coming?
does anybody feel guilt a twinge?

I can't get too close to you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
I can't spend my time on you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am

you had a glow
I didn't know, and still you did me in
it didn't show
until the sun went down on where we'd been

if only Icarus could see me now
he'd save himself his mess
why did I let it get so far?
why did I answer you "yes"?

I can't get too close to you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
I can't spend my time on you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am

sunburn (overlapping)

I can't get too close to you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
I can't spend my time on you
you lay your rays on me
and I'm a sunburn
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am
it's all I am, it's all I am, it's all I am

still a child

too much nostalgia for someone so small, they say
but I reminisce on the past again anyway
I know I should save it up for when I grow
returning to the books I never really read

reliving life I never really led

but I still dance barefoot alone in my room
I still turn on my fairy lights and twirl cross the floor with my broom
I still huddle in bed when the rain starts to fall
I still stand on my toes, I still wish I was tall

maybe it's called something different now
maybe I'm careless or wild
but in my mind's eye
I'm still a child

time to grow up, time to be more realistic, they say
but what's the purpose of vision unmagical,
keeping the fairies at bay?
I know it all might seem silly
but I so long for escape to the way it was
picking buttercups just because

so I still write letters to you in my room
I still spray my wavy hair with lavender perfume
I still hope this isn't over too soon
I still turn my gaze out the window and smile at the moon

maybe it's called something different now
maybe I'm careless or wild
but in my mind's eye
I'm still a child
I'm still a child

annual birthday cry (interlude)

time for the annual birthday cry
time to weep my feelings out, I'm not sure why
time to stuff my face with cake and heave a sigh
it's time for the birthday cry

time for the annual birthday sob
time to sit and wonder why I'm such a slob
time to read a message from my grandpa Bob
it's time for the birthday sob

once a year, I sense a tear and hide my face away
once a year, I fill with fear at feelings I don't know why I convey

it's time for the annual birthday cry
time to weep (but privately) I'm not sure why
time to stuff my face with cake and heave a sigh
it's time for the birthday cry

twentyone

twentyone
just begun
and already I can question
the power of suggestion's just too strong

twentyone
playtime's done
if what I have's not mine
how dare I think to pine?
I'm in the wrong

and I wonder how I got so far
with half a tank left in the car
and half a million debts I'll always owe
if I leave this opportunity
wasting here in front of me
I'll never know
I'll never go, I'll never grow

twentyone
and nothing won
so much eating up my mind
so many songs I'm leaving behind
I'm numb

twentyone
a loaded gun
I feel a pinch, I break, I flinch
with every inch I'm not sure where it's coming from

and I wonder how I got so far
with half a tank left in the car
and half a million debts I'll always owe
if I leave this opportunity
wasting here in front of me
I'll never know
I'll never go, I'll never grow

and I'm starting to notice that we play it like a game
we take moments and we think
"this would look nice in a frame"
is it inherently bad that we live futuristically
or is it just a symptom of the rhythm
of not quite enough time
of beat and a rhyme?

and I wonder how I got so far
with half a tank left in the car
and half a million debts I'll always owe
if I leave this opportunity
wasting here in front of me
I'll never know
I'll never go, I'll never grow

turning stranger

swap opinions for consensus
they won't notice and it's better this way
I've lost my appetite for being right and saving face
oh humility, oh silly me

and I'm glad I know
and I wish I could go
and I have no

it's easier to pretend than face the facts
it's just one night, I think I can handle that
always sucking in because God forbid I should like my skin
oh humanity, oh the man in me

and I'm glad I know
and I wish I could go
and I have no

no clue who I am
no clue who I was
that's the danger
of turning stranger

I'll be your villain if it makes you smile
and I'll know in my heart it was you, though you'll convince me for a while
I gave my golden years for muddled tears and sights unclear
all this hurrying, all this worrying
 

and I'm glad I know
and I wish I could go
and I have no

no clue who I am
no clue who I was
that's the danger
of turning stranger

stranger still
the things we do for each other
stranger still
from clueless fool into brother
stranger still
the things we do for each other
stranger still
but if my soul was another

swap opinions for consensus
they won't notice and it's better this way
I've lost my appetite for being right and saving face
oh humility, oh silly me

and I'm glad I know
and I wish I could go
and I have no

no clue who I am
no clue who I was
that's the danger
of turning stranger

people change

people change
that's okay
we weren't made
to stay this way
people change
time goes by
and someday we'll forget what made us cry

people change
some skip town
some grow kind
some let you down
people change
time stands still
it doesn't make sense
but someday it will

and people recycle their dreams
and people are different, it seems
than they were
when you were small
and you didn't know people at all

people change
you will too
it's just a phase
we all go through
people change
time moves on
and somehow we'll forget the stars we wished upon

and people recycle their dreams
and people are different, it seems
than they were
when you were small
and now you don't know people at all

people change
that's okay
we weren't made
to stay this way
people change
time goes by
and someday we'll forget what made us cry

share this food with you (interlude)

I wish that I could share this food with you
it's pretty tasty, pretty good
I think you'd like it too
but you are oh so far away
I doubt the taste would stay
if I somehow shipped a plate today
so I'll just have to say
"what a shame
I guess a photograph will have to do"

who told you

you didn't know what you wanted
you had it all till time came
now you're here, and it's over
and you have no one else to blame
who told you you could do it all and win?

stretched a little too thin, but you didn't mind, it was all you were interested in
now you have to decide, there's no answer right there, you'll just have to depend on a prayer
who told you you'd be done when you begin?

oh, darlin', you can't have it all
it's those bright colors that make the leaves all fall

go ahead, ask around, just remember they'll all fall away when your feet hit the ground
you can ask for suggestions, but lessons are better relayed when you stray from the shade
who told you you could make it on a whim?

oh, darlin', you can't have it all
it's those bright colors that make the leaves all fall

in some ways, you suppose it's all out of your hands
then again, you just knew it was through the moment you spoke of your plans
who told you you could do it all and win?

oh, darlin', you can't have it all
it's those bright colors that make the leaves all fall

you didn't know what you wanted
you had it all till time came
now you're here, and it's over
and you have no one else to blame

antique store man

I'm a collector like the antique store man
picking up beauties where nobody else can
broken people, broken things
broken hearts and broken wings
the incomplete, the never began

I'm a collector like the antique store clerk
picking up stories, the things that didn't work
I take it all into my store
I leave it different than it was before
and satisfaction, that's just a perk

it's all what I'm perceiving in it
I'm just believing in it
I took the task when others ran
me and the antique store man

I'm a collector like the antique store man
picking up moments and holding 'em close as I can
doesn't matter if it's been a while
I swear those things'll come back in style
so I keep 'em spick and span

I'm a collector like the antique store clerk
picking up business, but I'd never call it work
I'm always finding priceless art
I'm always fixing someone else's heart
and imperfection, that's just a quirk

it's all what I'm perceiving in it
I'm just believing in it
I took the task when others ran
me and the antique store man

some things don't wanna be preserved
some things don't know what they deserved
and I can't help but wonder
when his collection's gone and sold
does the antiques man's skin grow cold?
had he hoped to keep his beauties till he's old?

well, it's all what I'm perceiving in it
I'm just believing in it
I took the task when others ran
me and the antique store man
me and the antique store man

beautiful instead (interlude)

we save up things like journals and wine
to make the most of a special time
but why not flip the script on its head
to make the normal beautiful instead?

keep collecting the things that you love
protect the ones your fondest of
and when your day's blasé and you think it's better to stay in bed
now's the time, make the normal beautiful instead

wrong

I've been working on myself
I've been pushing hard to grow
I've been practicing late
I've been tired and awake
I've been saying I'm okay
hope you'll love me once again
and it's hard
and it's hard

I've been trying to get it back
I've been sleeping in till noon
I've been quiet and polite
I've been reading at night
I've been losing every fight
guess I'll never get it right
and it's hard
and it's hard

why don't you understand me?
why can't I give you a clue?
why must you reprimand me
with everything that I do?
it's all wrong, it's all wrong
it's all wrong, it's all wrong
I'm just trying

I've been tired of sleepy tears
I've been eating processed food
I've saying yes not no
I've been celebrating low
I've been wishing I were cold
while you're standing in the snow
and it's hard
and it's hard

why don't you understand me?
why can't I give you a clue?
why must you reprimand me
with everything that I do?
it's all wrong, it's all wrong
it's all wrong, it's all wrong
I'm just tired

I've been starting once again
I've been feeling so alone
I've been wondering what went wrong
I've been wishing I'd belong
I've been tired of being strong
I've been trying to sing this song
and it's hard
and it's hard

crazy caprese (remastered)

she's a little bit of red and a little green

a whole lot of flavor coming on the scene, and I
don't know when she got to town
but now she's here and she's turned it upside down

you'll hear the sizzle of tomatoes on a frying pan, oh
you'll smell balsamic, so sardonic when you take her hand


they say she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese

she's crazy caprese
(hey hey hey)

there's something acidic, but familiar too
she drives a Honda Civic and she wears a tattoo, and I
can't tell what she wants from me
but I'm about as ready as I'm ever gonna be

you'll hear the sizzle of tomatoes on a frying pan, oh
you'll smell balsamic, so sardonic when you take her hand


they say she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese
crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese
she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese

she'll never tell what's deep within
she's far too busy cov'ring up the secrets on her skin, and I
can't tell what she came here for
you'd better pay attention when she walks right out that door


you'll hear the sizzle of tomatoes on a frying pan, mm
you'll smell balsamic, so sardonic when you take her hand

they say she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese
they say she's crazy caprese

a little bit of red and a little green
a whole lot of flavor coming on the scene, and I
don't know when she got to town
but now she's here and she's turned it upside down

dollar store version of you

I hide in the shadows
of someone who's three years younger
never mind the hope I find in being something new

if you can do it too
why should I try?
you're dancin', why
say I'm a bad guy
I'll feed your deja vu
I'm only the dollar store version of you

must you compare me?
there's hardly room as it stands
great, another one
guess I'd better run
let's see what tricks she can do

it's not as if it's something new
but I'm starting to think I'm a fraud
I'm made of bits I stole
but I play the role
just the part I stepped into
I'm only the dollar store version of you

you're catching up
I'm falling behind
I'm falling behind

"you look just like her,"
they say with a devilish grin
what's that statement for?
is it either/or?
can't take much more till I'm through

but how can I stand apart
without doing the standing alone?
it's a lonely game
I'm alone, we're the same
except that I'm the fool girl who
is only the dollar store version of you

injured wing

at this point, I'm just wondering what kept me
tied together with one string
all the evidence
left with loss of innocence
an early bird with injured wing

didn't know what I was thinking
even now, I'm still not sure
all I know is I'm not who I was before

if it were you, I wouldn't question
wouldn't even blink an eye
instead I'm standing here
missing every word I hear
and still, I wonder why I cry

didn't know what I was thinking
even now, I'm still not sure
all I know is I'm not who I was before

I'm moving on
I'm moving on
I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna set it free
I'm moving on

I guess that I was blind to second guessing
thought it all was said and done
now the lesson's learned
bought with the mistakes I earned
though the living's just begun

didn't know what I was thinking
even now, I'm still not sure
all I know is I'm not who I was before

I'm moving on
I'm moving on
I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna set it free
I'm moving on

I'm moving on
I'm moving on
I'm gonna let it be
I'm gonna set it free
I'm moving on

wouldn't it be funny

wouldn't it be funny if you looked at me and you asked me for my name?
wouldn't it be funny if we talked a while and didn't notice when our orders came?
and wouldn't it be funny if we stayed right here 
till they kicked us out with a shove?
wouldn't it be funny if we fell in love?

wouldn't it be funny if I called you up, hoping to ask to meet again?
wouldn't it be funny if the call declined because you were calling me right then?
and wouldn't it be funny if we each were convinced 
the other thought they were too far above?

wouldn't it be funny if we fell in love?

wouldn't it be funny if we patched it up and we went on our first date?
wouldn't it be funny if the food wasn't good,
the movie was slow and the Uber was late?
and wouldn't it be funny if we didn't care, we said "regretful, ha, what of"?
wouldn't it be funny if we fell in love?

wouldn't it be funny if I met your mom and we got along real good?
wouldn't it be funny if you gave me a tour around your hometown neighborhood?
and wouldn't it be funny if your friends all thought I fit you like a glove?
wouldn't it be funny?
wouldn't it be funny?
wouldn't it be funny if we fell in love?

wouldn't it be funny?
wouldn't it be funny?
wouldn't it be funny if we fell in love?

symbol

"over
that's what we are"
I say as I look away and I start to start my car

finished
that's what this is
you look like you took a book to the face, so let me clear up

this was my mistake
I was all give, no take
nothing and everything at stake
it was my wrong choice to make

but I'm more than a symbol
I'm more than a dotted line
I'm more than the last bad step you took so everything would turn out fine
I'm more than the answer
I'm more than a token broken once I know
pack up these lies and go

useless
that's what you've been
acting like you're clueless, I know you knew this
you let the problems in

stupid
that's what I was
thinking you'd get better
come on, who let her
imagine, just because

you were sometimes fine
walking a real fine line
didn't even read the signs
supposed to be this thing divine

but I'm more than a symbol
I'm more than some junk you hoard
I'm more than the thing you circle back to just because you're sometimes bored

I'm more than a question
I'm more than a short suggestion
you won't know
pack up these lies and go

shoulda seen it coming
shoulda come out running
should've faced the music 'stead of plugging both my ears and humming

shoulda turned the light on
should've placed my sight on something more
than what I'd seen before

but I'm more than a symbol
I'm more than some joke you heard
I'm more than the accident that happened to be better than you first inferred
I'm more than a sentence
I'm more than a hope you cope with
just for show
pack up these lies and go

grown up (interlude)

I woke up today and I noticed that something had changed
I often do things that at one time I thought were deranged
I value a non-stick pan, I schedule check-ups on my own
I think about the cost of gas
I stay up too late, I own a phone
I carry card identification, I put a napkin on my lap when I sup
there's only one logical explanation
I've grown up

give me somebody

what made you do this to me?
you gave me a heart and let it be
under-watered
hope is slaughtered
I'm your daughter
and my eyes cannot see

please give me somebody
please give me somebody
I don't understand
I know there's a plan
but I'm on my knees
so please give me somebody

I still feel your love, as you know
but every few hours or so
my heart is dying
I keep on trying
but I can't stop crying
and you promised a while ago

so please give me somebody
please give me somebody
I don't understand
I know there's a plan
but I'm on my knees
so please give me somebody

I know I should trust you
but here's all my doubt
I'm only so scared
my heart's unprepared
to deal with Without

I see everyone in their bliss
boy leans to girl for a kiss
did I do wrong?
I don't belong
why couldn't you make me strong?
I don't know how to deal with this

please give me somebody
please give me somebody
I don't understand
I know there's a plan
but I'm on my knees
so please give me somebody


give me somebody

into the world again

to joy again
to love again
to hopes that push won't come to shove again

to emptier plates and fuller bellies
carefree laughs, and then
to stepping back into the world again

to breathe again
take trips again
to recognize each other's dry chapped lips again
to movie theaters, fitting rooms
replacing If with When
to stepping back into the world again

to singing any song I want
it doesn't matter where
to sitting still in silence with some other person there
to living through a season you thought you couldn't bear
to holding on to memories to share

to joy again
to love again
to hopes that push won't come to shove again

to looking back behind me

and picking up my pen
to stepping back into the world again
to stepping back into the world again

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 

credits:

 

Music and lyrics: Lizzy Hilliard

Executive producer: Lizzy Hilliard

Producer: Jonathan Hilliard

Mixing and Mastering: Jonathan Hilliard

Album Artwork: Sarah Lavin

Lizzy Hilliard: vocals, acoustic guitar, electric guitar, ukulele, mandolin, kalimba, handbells, accordion, harmonica, percussion, piano*

Abhik Mazumder: violin, piano^

Alice Ford: viola

Nicholas Hilliard: cello
Jonathan Hilliard: electric bass
John Layton: saxophone

Erich Corfman: trombone

 

Special thanks to: Allison and Peter Hilliard, Joanne and John Hilliard, Lucy Rothman, Richard Schwartz, Bob Rothman, Jessica Strassman, Brandeis University, Indiana University, The British American Drama Academy, The Stay Club Kentish Town, The Artery, TikTok, @travisbernhardt17, @morghan_with_an_h

^ - can't listen to that song anymore

* - can't listen to that song anymore, give me somebody, people change